Dear Journal

Technology just evolves and flies so fast as time does. haha! Who would ever think that we could have this online delivery. Well, not to mention E-bay does works this way. Click on the item, and it'd be delivered right at your doors. What about food? Possible? Hmm.. I saw this huge billboard going to Ayala, click: www.myjoy.ph Having an internet in your own home, alas! internet has helped me fill my hungry stomache.

I used to order their halo halo when i was in elementary. My sister would treat me to MacJoy, losing her daily allowance. Hehe. Thanks kamay! Now that they have resurrected, Miss D and I went to Ayala and had lunch and tried their mouth-watery grilled pork belly. Satisfying! Thinking only this store serves this variety of dish.

Allow me to introduce their online delivery. As easy as one-two-three... no mind boggling steps to order online. All you have to do is to choose from the menu, fill in the fields where you want it delivered.. and voila! you're order is right at your doors! Now, i don't feel like im living in a third world country. After all, hey, we are in cebu right?! (you know what i mean)

What are the chances of choosing and sticking to your Internet Service Provider? I have counted the ways why we choose PLDT for our office, and Globe in the house.

Are you familiar with this website? www.myjoy.ph This is one of our client, last week, when we tried to make the updates for this site... We was wondering where our updates could be? Using PLDT, we were able to see the newly up site... hmmm... whatever happened to this. I tried calling Globe's customer service and alas! they were able to solve the problem. I am just amazed at their customer service. Compared to PLDT, duh?! are they even agents i mean "technical" agents? There was one time when i called up since we were not able to connect to our internet, and all they said was the simplest troubleshooting ever, the undefeated restart. Well anyway, we shall be waiting what their response will be.

And so the battle between these two telecommunications company continues.

Today is a tuesday and it feels a draggy day. I woke up and felt not going to the office and work. One time i tried to ask my officemate if he wanted to just do nothing, wake up late... relax. ahh... i wanted to do that since. I wanted to just stop working and stop worrying. I know i should not worry. I must keep in mind that i am only human.

There's this guy i knew who wouldn't let go of his love for someone. It's been for 3 long years that he's been loving this lady. Should his love for this lady true or not, I seem to ask myself. What would his ways be?

It's the end of the week, A saturday, a draggy saturday. I wanted our saturdays be a day off, to be in extension class in the morning, choir in the evening. I really wanted to take a break, have some kitkat... haha! just kidding! but seriously, i wanted to have a day off, wake up late.. just lying in bed, doing nothing. I mean, just give me a day to do that, i would really love to do that! NOW! But, i know time will come, these will be mine. In HIS perferct time.

I'm in the office this time, doing the content for our church website. I would also be writing for our church bulletin. work, work, work!

Fresh week, fresh day, I wanted you to keep you updated on this journal.

This morning we just came from a client meeting. Oh boy! I just love this job. I am just glad our pastor encouraged us to form this team. And although we may not have that great income this time, but we come in equal sharing at the end of this year. Weee! :)

We will be working this time on my favorite brownies. Cookies and Brownies. hhmm... i would love and really excited how this site would work. I will keep you posted!

We never talked about it
'cause you never even cared
And what you really wanted
I never even had

'cause what may seem right
And what may be wrong
Seems out of sight
In this place we belong
Giving everything

Giving everything for love
I'm finding out that it's not enough
There's nothing left between you and i
I'm finding faith but losing us

Where worlds collide

Together we seemed perfect
A fairy tale for show
And looking on the outside
You'd never even know

That we're just not right
When compromises is wrong
Seems out of sight
In this place we belong
Giving everything

We're just not right
When compromise is wrong
Seems out of sight

It is but such a pain to follow what the Lord commands, but it is for my sake. Loving an unbeliever, loving God, which would you choose. Then your free will would begin. And yet you need to choose only one. To love him or to love HIM. Unfair it may seem, I say it isn't, it is what is fair and just. Knowing how he has been faithful and loving. Sometimes we just do now understand things. Just like how the moon stays up there and not fall from the sky. I may not understand but in due time i will. All i need is a willing heart. A heart that is subjective. A heart that is open for rebuke and is willing to be taught and corrected. God will let him understand. Just have a little faith. God will comfort me. God knows best!

I am just sooo charged up with this morning's message which was entitled: HOW GREAT GOD IS?! I just couldn't imagine how great my God is not until the preacher, a missionary to Indonesia told us that no matter how small and unpopular we are her on earth, God -- who could measure the number of the stars and even knows the number of you and i's hair... HE knows who i really am. I am SOOO BIG in HIS sight.

Sometimes i just think and look on the problem which is soo big and yet GOD is even bigger. He knows every detail of my life and that includes this burden i am facing and struggling.

Yesterday, i almost cried right then when my michael B. called up and tried to blame me on whatever would happen to his wife. I just couldn't think of more things that i could do to please him and her. What more could they ask from me? Sometimes i ask 'why do i deserve to be this way?' but then i ponder and subside... like what i always teach in my Sunday School lessons... i teach them to face the challenge since not all good things come from GOD, there may be troubles and heartaches that HE would let us meet. How do we face it? Face it with the strong shield of armor -- JESUS!

I wanted to prove to myself that i too can do if i would only be disciplined.

1) I wanted to wake up so early, that i could still hear the roosters waking the neighborhood up. My brother tells me it's all in the matter of how you want your body would respond. You have to be used to if there'd be something that you wanted to do til you reach your goal.

2) I wanted to stop thinking bout this person. Someone whom i know who has this huge love for this person. How confusing, just don't make yourself tire thinking of who you want  to have in mind. I wanted to wait.. at the right moment. For i know in due time, everything will be the best thing that i could ever imagine.

PATIENCE.. aacckk!! i must not forget. if i'd learn how ot wait... marvelous things would happen.

From this day onwards, i will do my best... to obey for HE wanted me to obey with no questions asked.