Dear Journal

It is but such a pain to follow what the Lord commands, but it is for my sake. Loving an unbeliever, loving God, which would you choose. Then your free will would begin. And yet you need to choose only one. To love him or to love HIM. Unfair it may seem, I say it isn't, it is what is fair and just. Knowing how he has been faithful and loving. Sometimes we just do now understand things. Just like how the moon stays up there and not fall from the sky. I may not understand but in due time i will. All i need is a willing heart. A heart that is subjective. A heart that is open for rebuke and is willing to be taught and corrected. God will let him understand. Just have a little faith. God will comfort me. God knows best!