Dear Journal

I am just sooo charged up with this morning's message which was entitled: HOW GREAT GOD IS?! I just couldn't imagine how great my God is not until the preacher, a missionary to Indonesia told us that no matter how small and unpopular we are her on earth, God -- who could measure the number of the stars and even knows the number of you and i's hair... HE knows who i really am. I am SOOO BIG in HIS sight.

Sometimes i just think and look on the problem which is soo big and yet GOD is even bigger. He knows every detail of my life and that includes this burden i am facing and struggling.

Yesterday, i almost cried right then when my michael B. called up and tried to blame me on whatever would happen to his wife. I just couldn't think of more things that i could do to please him and her. What more could they ask from me? Sometimes i ask 'why do i deserve to be this way?' but then i ponder and subside... like what i always teach in my Sunday School lessons... i teach them to face the challenge since not all good things come from GOD, there may be troubles and heartaches that HE would let us meet. How do we face it? Face it with the strong shield of armor -- JESUS!