Dear Journal

Thursday, July 10, 2008 The team stopped working and headed to church. The Missions Conference just ended and i was more than challenged to serve and to focus on HIM. I cried my heart out, and i could not even stop my tears from falling down my cheeks... I was burdened, I was getting weak, but then when i started talking with my Pastor... he revealed to me something that i didn't even see for myself. I was impatient, he says. I know i am struggling... he taught me to see how big God is and not see how big the problem is. That was then i knew that i will never perfect the 3 things that God wanted me to learn and perfect: TRUST/FAITH ; PATIENCE ; HOPE. Though people throw words that really mean and hurt me more, I shall not be moved. These people who are even close to me and of keen blood, I am hurt and i must not lie. Pastor K wanted me to move on so she could see that even if she's hurting me, i still love her and still am helping her. God knows my heart, HE's never blind. I will be still. HE is there to strengthen me. This time, I am holding on to the verse that Pastor K gave me and wanted me to hold... Philippians 1:6 ~ since HE started all these... HE promised to be faithful and will complete it. HE will fight the battle for me. I know my best friend wanted me to hold on to Romans 8:28 and i still am. He wanted me to just continue and never give up for GOD never gives up on me.

Saturday, July 12, 2008 The five of us: Nami, Miss D and her sister, my brother and i went to Olanggo island. That was my first time to ever relax and have the best time of my life for this year. Though i was not able to take a plunge, low tide was more than what we expected. I stayed in the shore and talked with the local kids... I was challenged, God used me to win their souls and bring at HIS feet. I was able to share and witness God's love. Now, I got 3 stones.

I tell you, teaching sunday school is really a challenge and it changes me each day.

Walking in faith, living by grace... as how i keep telling my best friend. Though he is always on a trip may it be for ministry and for his business... I am just glad and thankful that he is just there to listen. Spending time with him and his dad, talking over a 3-flavored-ice cream can never be bought never will i replace it with anything.

God is just sooo amazing for giving me such wonderful and nice friends. Surrounding me and reminding me that my God is soo big, soo strong and soo mighty and there's nothing that God cannot do for me. I shall not be moved, for the battle is HIS and not mine. I just have to be still, and even when i just stand there... looking at HIM fight the enemy, He'll strengthen me so i will go on.