Dear Journal

These days... i believe a lady should have the necessity to wear her stockings. What for? I mean... why all of a sudden? What's the mystery behind these stockings. Let me count the ways, er.. should i say the reasons why a lady should wear her stockings!

• To be more elegant. Men always think we ladies look elegant when we get to wear something like.. the ever so important... stockings. You should wear it with a pair of black dress.
• To let your best bud know that you've changed. So he won't treat you as a little sister. aagghh!!
• To be different. Each is designed to be a unique individual.

Ladies... it's time to be different. Dare to be different. Feel free to wear stockings. Let the whole world know that you are capable to wear those black stockings. Who cares what people would think. Let them think what they want. So long as you know you're beauty is revealing inside out. Go gurl!

(Kugz! this is it!)

It's a good thing that dema was there to be with me during our client meeting. She was behind me praying... I thank God for each of us. I never expected Dema and I would be close. Be with her at work, is really a wonderful thing.

We will be meeting later with the client to have the contract signing... we are more excited. My best friend sent me a message last night. Its good to hear from him. I must admit that im missing him. Though he was on a busines trip and part of the ministry activity as well, i was kinda missing him while he was out. Though he didn't stay there for long... but still i was sad knowing i just couldn't reach him. *sigh... i know where i should stand. I must not be expecting too much. God knows my heart and his. All i wanted is to just continue to have this friendship strengthened. Someday, though he may be hurting this time... he knows i am praying for him even if he doesn't tell me to. Think i just have to continue and press on...

Romans 8:28 , I am still holding on to this verse. When you don't like what you are doing, there is no joy, you would be unproductive and working would seem to take like forever to have it done.

My friends are always there to comfort and to guide me, I am glad and all the more thankful that they are there. What i really need is to have an exit of this so called dungeon that i am facing in. I am trapped and could not be what i wanted to be. Caught in between two things: whether to be a good sister or to just leave and not think about her when you leave her behind.

What would you do when you are in my shoes? Yes, it would be easy for you to say to just leave everything behind and continue. Part of me says, and i believe it's someone telling me to put everything in proper place before leaving. Mountaineers always have this rule: "Leave No Trace". Uhmm.. in my case... I wanted to shout from the top of my lungs and pour everything out! Can i just shout the same thing what my sister told me. Cursing me when all i did was nothing but to please her. SHe just doesn't consider and doesn't even know I am working for gratitude and doing everything I can for her.

My best friend would always say... "God knows best!" TRUE! He knows whats best which is why i am holding on to the verse in Romans 8:28. Kugz would always let me know there will be joy after. Something that would happen when i least expect it. And it would be the most beautiful thing and it will only come at the right time and at the right place.