Dear Journal

Romans 8:28 , I am still holding on to this verse. When you don't like what you are doing, there is no joy, you would be unproductive and working would seem to take like forever to have it done.

My friends are always there to comfort and to guide me, I am glad and all the more thankful that they are there. What i really need is to have an exit of this so called dungeon that i am facing in. I am trapped and could not be what i wanted to be. Caught in between two things: whether to be a good sister or to just leave and not think about her when you leave her behind.

What would you do when you are in my shoes? Yes, it would be easy for you to say to just leave everything behind and continue. Part of me says, and i believe it's someone telling me to put everything in proper place before leaving. Mountaineers always have this rule: "Leave No Trace". Uhmm.. in my case... I wanted to shout from the top of my lungs and pour everything out! Can i just shout the same thing what my sister told me. Cursing me when all i did was nothing but to please her. SHe just doesn't consider and doesn't even know I am working for gratitude and doing everything I can for her.

My best friend would always say... "God knows best!" TRUE! He knows whats best which is why i am holding on to the verse in Romans 8:28. Kugz would always let me know there will be joy after. Something that would happen when i least expect it. And it would be the most beautiful thing and it will only come at the right time and at the right place.