Dear Journal

It was not until over the weekend that everything just turned out the way God wanted it to be. Norlyn called me up and wanted me to come to church for an emergency meeting for Sunday School teachers. But before that, Pastor Kent talked with me and explained what he has been praying all along. I was able to clear my mind from doubts and fears. This firm that we're planning to build is an IT firm. I haven't prayed intensely for this but he does. They have been waiting for me to say 'yes'. God made everything clear right in my very eyes. All i have to do is to respond and to join in HIS work.

The evening came of Saturday. He was in a business meeting when i tried to send him an SMS. But he sent me an SMS to say goodnight though. There isn't a single day that we don't get to communicate. I was waiting for him to tell me he'd be going to manila for business trip. I felt differently when he told me he's going to the US for the convention. I asked him how many days he'd be staying there... i was kinda relieved when he says just for a few days. Anyway, I am excited seeing him in church on a Sunday.

Sunday came... we had a guest speaker, he's been supporting the Bible Baptist College for years. Now, he's been supporting the Vietnam missions. I was really blessed with his message. In the morning... in church, he delivered a message all about doing what we can, doing all that we can and doing it now! I went on my knees and i saw him too. I know he's been praying and wanting to be on a full time servant. I am just soo blessed with his life.

That evening, i was looking for him in Katipunan, but he wasn't there. I don't know why... I asked Norlyn for company, she was there for me when i called up my ex to make everything come to an end. And i did! That was my last call. I told him to just forget about me and just let me be. I understand how he feels. I never felt the love but what i felt was pity. I didn't want it to overule. I am more excited to join in God's work. Now, that my brother has been involved in church. God has answered my prayer one at a time in HIS perfect time. As what he would always tell me... God knows best!

I believe he's losing heart for my friend. I hope he is... i could see his heart... i know how he really felt for her. But i know and i am praying... God has been slowly revealing everything.

He asked me to pray for him... he's in manila now. He says he'll be missing me... although there are things that aren't crystal yet... but soon it will be. God knows best! I told him it'd only be for days... and added telling him how excited i am for the Free Clinic. I am all the more giving for HIM everything I can. He will take care of me.