Dear Journal

That's how my teacher tells me... i just feel tired. Tired of almost everything... Waiting... and just not doing anything... i only wait for people to realize on things... but now i am no longer waiting but i am more than happy and having this joy and this is how i should be telling you. God amazes me.. His grace really amazes me... how people close to me are helping me get through everything. Sometimes, we have to accept that there are just things that we just couldn't have no matter what.

I am so much thankful for the guys so close in my heart. I have learned how much they care for me. My friend in church, this guy has helped me get through. I know that he's been hurting too. I could tell and even see his heart how he has been struggling. But above all, i could tell that he cares. I was having lunch with him and his dad the other day, his dad was all the more giving me advices i never heard before. I am keeping them. Then, there's my brother, i know i was stupid sometimes. but he sure does accept me for who i am. He knows that i am hurting... he comforts... he helps me come to realize that there is a pot of gold right at the end of that rainbow. These guys have helped me come to my senses. God has brought me to my senses. Now, i am all the more living for Jesus!