Dear Journal

... Salamat. That was the last word and i have never heard of him again. I wanted us to stop communicating. I wanted to know if he'd really keep his promise or not. But he insisted. He says he will... but i doubt. I am losing hope. My trust... it seems like it's been losing too. I wanted him to prove something... if i am really for him or if we would end up together. But i guess... everything seemed to be out of control. Being honest sometimes breaks someone's heart right? I wanted to tell him that for the past days that we've been communicating... I am starting to fall out of love. Could this be because i am just tired of those promises that seemed to be broken and unkept? I am tired of waiting for nothing. I believe that if we really are for each other, He will find a way for us to be together. Now, i don't think that would be possible... my feelings for him... they are almost gone. As the days passed... my love for him went with the time that has passed. I am aware that i have made a promise... I will still keep it... I know I am beginning to like this guy... i just don't know yet...