Dear Journal

Whoever says friends come and friends go... These days, there is no one i could not confde on to but my friends whom i know who's really dear to me. Having Christian and Godly friends encourage me to just move on with life. Struggles and trials that come my way makes me feel exhausted and stressed out. There are times when i'm really feel upset about my brother. I thought of doing things my way sometimes but somehow God let me understand His tender mercies and His cries everytime i kneel before Him and ask for His love and care. He does care and he listens... John 11:22, I am holding on to this verse. Bro. Benjie told me to just trust Him and to fully fall in love with Him... Matthew 6:33. I know He will never break HIs promises and will keep them until He fulfills what He wants to do with my life.

I may be crying, God knows my heart. Kuya may not see it, but honestly, i am soo deeply hurt. I am praying for you and will never cease until God asks me to stop. I love you so much that I'd rather not have the things that i want just for you to be pleased. I'd rather work so hard and even gets sick of working... And no matter how tired I am, it's just nothing so long as you would have what you want. I hope you would also understand what i am feeling right now. Physically, emotionally, and mentally and sometimes spiritually stressed. I just hope and pray you would see how I am.