Dear Journal

In the middle of this crisis that our family has been through... all i ever wanted is someone to talk to. My church friends are quite busy at these moments... there has been a lot of events happening in church and i even have to be there to take part of it. Sometimes, i think of those 'if only... ' but i guess it wouldn't happen right? God wouldn't allow me to be gone astray. I'm glad though that our pastor is there for me to help me pray whenever i ask him to. His wife, encourages me everytime i see him working for the Lord.

It was last Tuesday, when i tried to give him a ring. I tried to find out if his phone still works... it did ring. Aagghh!! Guess, he has a life of his own now. I left him... guess i should've not go back and run to him right? I always put in mind that God has purpose and reasons... I will know in due time... I will know why God made you...