Dear Journal

I was wondering sometimes... i wanted to do things beyond imaginable. I mean, not the usual things that i'm supposed to do. I was thinking of going to get rid of the problems that i have to face. Can i do things on my own? I'm getting weak now and tired of praying and even don't know what to say... should i ask? should i thank? When times like these... all i think of is going away from home and leave them behind. Am i cruel enough?

Yesterday, i was reading our chat history...

I never knew that you'd come back and find me.

I still have you here in my heart.

These are the words that came out from my heart. I have to leave him and break up with him no matter how it hurts me soo much. Choosing between what seems right and what is rght. What's the difference? My cousin told me yesterday when i went to their house and asked them for help... she told me... i maybe crying now... but surely in the end it'd be a blessing.

Family... they are more important to me now.