Dear Journal

I don't want to think about it... Although there's only the two of us here in the house, there should be one who'd stay low when the other feels he's that high. I hate it when my brother doesn't seem to understand how busy i am with my work schedule. He just doesn't seem to care. When it comes to the budget?! Arrghh!! Does he even think where i got the money to pay all the bills? As i talked with my cousin yesterday, she tells me guys are always like that... what?! Why can't he just save some money and not buy all those unwanted stuff. I am having a hard time trying to budget the money. Is it that difficult to understand? When i talked with my cousin, that was then i knew what God has been trying to say all this time. I was not able to understand not 'til this end of the year. Whaah!! God answered my prayers, i waited for a year. He wanted to let me live by faith. He wanted me to trust Him and to just wait on His leading. As i said my prayers last night... that was when i knew i have to join HIM in His work in my life. Sometimes it's exciting, but sometimes it's scary... TRUST and LOVE <<< these will always prevail.