Dear Journal

August 26, 2007 (Saturday)

The 5th Gamer's Day Out! I totally had fun! Honestly, I could say.. this has been the best Gamer's Day Out ever. They start coming at around 9:30AM. Tiberium Wars tourney started at around 10:30AM and ended at 12:15PM... We were getting hungry, the girls most especially... So what i did, I started grilling the pork so by the time the tourney's over and they'd declare the Ultimate champ, Lunch would be ready for these boys! After we had the barbecue, i took the marshmallows out...

as if?!!! We felt like we were having camping. Hello?!! In broad daylight?!! Marshmallows on a stick??!!! Well, it doesn't matter anyway, so long as we have fun and we don't care what people would say! 

We had our group picture right after we had lunch and all... for the finale... everyone squeezed in and ....

cheese!!

I'd never forget this Gamer's Day Out! I really had fun!

Who would have thought that we could take part of the history... This strange Lunar eclipse that would only happen in 98 years really is a history in the making.

This morning, my mother and i went out... We paid the bills and went to my cuz's house. News! News! They'd be moving in as soon as my cousin will be home. We'd have a new neighbor then! Whoopie!!! Aside from Nami... It's gonna be kuya, me and my cousin's family who's just a next door away. Anyway, we got home just about in time for the great Lunar Eclipse... The RED MOON... but where is the moon?! huh?!

It was a cloudy day and we could not see anything in the cloud! We just watched the entire duration of the eclipse in Discovery Channel... It's a good thing they have it shown live!

GOOD BYE AVAYA!!!

August 16, 2007... I was suppose to go back to the office and talk to our OM. Since my bro will be going with me and giving me a ride... my mother's BP went from normal to high again. She just gets soo worried so much the reason why her hypertension triggers. So i decided not to with their permission too you know. This is also my major concern on why i decided to quit! Honestly speaking, i got no complaints on the workload it's just that the schedule really is killing me. If i was living alone... then it would be fine. But i am living with my parents which i have to follow their rules. I know the compensation really is soo attractive and it really helps... but if in that case that my parents health would be at risk... i could only say... NO, THANKS anyway! Although they are giving me an offer... a permanent sched... but i think it still could not help. I don't want a job that would affect and let my family worry that much. I told Ronald about this...No more call centers and i quit! He told me that at the start he knew that this kind of job is not for me. I wonder why he knew it all along. He must have know me that much, i guess. Whaahh!!! couldn't imagine that it has been 11 years that Ronald (i call him Miguel though... for some reasons... it was that time when we had coffee and talked to him about my ex-boyfriend... enough about that! i don't want to recall) and i are friends. Are we really that old. We knew each other since third year high school. So much for that... let's get back to this call center thingy...

Moving along... as what Bro. Larry Gadger, our teacher in 'Experiencing God' study, says that circumstances come along with God's plans for us. I felt the right thing when i first got hired and got this job. A lot of people have been against me having this job but i remain hard-headed. I choose to have my own path and walk on my way...I felt God was just letting me experience for a month or two how it really is to have this kind of job. I didn't reach even the 3rd month. It was too much already... i couldn't imagine that this job would not allow me to go to church on a Sunday. It was then i knew that i have to quit. 

I trust my God that He will give me the best job for me... I can't wait when that comes!

But as for now... No more Call Centers for me! That i know for sure.  

August 11, 2007. It was exactly 1:30AM already August 12, Sunday. The night of August 11 and the dawn of August 12... Please don't get yourself confused... Bottomline is only the day when my sister, her husband and my nephew came on board Philippine Airlines from Korea. All my parents know is that my nephew would be flying all alone with the help and assistance of everyone at PAL and the airport people. It was kuya and mama who went to the airport and met them... we knew all along that ate and my heung bu will be coming too. We just kept it as a secret. Mama was soo happy to see ate and my bro-in-law and most of all seongboy... papa was too. Papa and i stayed at home and waited for them to come. We slept at about 5:00AM and woke up to go to church at 10:30AM. Whaahh!! can't believe we're soo late. I had to attend our 'Experiencing God' study... they'd just be sleeping anyway so i decided to attend.

Evening came... We invited Namiko to have dinner with us. She's the japanese girl who's renting the other house we have. I will never forget this night when we had barbecue and ate outside and really enjoyed each other's company. Grilling pork and the eel my sister brought. It was the best dinner ever! If only Kamay was with us... it would have been soo fun too! We miss her a lot!

Then came Wednesday... We need not have to waste each day with their stay here... they'd only be staying here for a week. And that's it! We went to the beach. Since it was on a wednesday... there were only few people. The resort was as if we rented the entire place. We really had soo much fun. Building sand castle... I don't exactly know if we were really making one. It didn't show... The wave runner that my bro-in-law rented. I tried riding at the back seat... scary... but fun! How could you explain that?!

Thursday... My bro-in-law went home. We took some photos before we headed to the airport. Chancho wanted to join too! Please bear with him. He's just a dog.

With the help of our friend in church... he was assisted up to the boarding gate. See how important the church is huh?! :p

Sunday came... and it was time for my sister and my nephew to head back home.

On board Philippine Airlines... at exactly 3:45PM... the plane flew and left Cebu. Papa went crying. He was afraid he could no longer see ate and seongboy anymore. I said a little prayer right away. I know God hears me right then and there. Only He and I know what i told Him about.

I don't want to think about sad moments... saying goodbyes... i really hate them! The reason why i always am thinking of happy thoughts and happy memories. Past will remain past and i have to go on with what lies ahead. With Christ as my leader... He'll definitely lead me to where He wanted me to. A place that is just the right and best place for me!

REAL GIRL

by: Mutya Buena

If I had one chance to
In my life again
I wouldn't make no changes
Now or way back when (yeah)
And if everything turns out
The way I hope it goes
But I cant wait to find out
What it is that God knows

But I don't wanna think about
What's gonna come around for me
I'll just take it day by day
'Cause it's the only way
To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

And nothing's ever perfect
There's no guarantee
And if I knew the answers
It would put my mind at ease (no)
So I'll just keep on going
The way I've gone so far
And maybe I'll end up
Tryin' to catch a fallin star (yeah)

But I don't wanna think about
What's gonna come around for me
I'll just take it day by day
'Cause it's the only way
To be the best that I can be

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

Baby this is who I am
Don't need you to understand
'Cause everything is right where it should be
It wont be long til you know about me,
'Cause I don't give a...
Even when I'm out of love
'Cause everythings just how it should be
And it wont be long till you know about me

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

I never pretend to be something I'm not
You get what you see, when you see what I've got
We live in the real world, I'm just a real girl
I know exactly where I stand

And all I can do is be true to myself
I don't need permission from nobody else
'Cause this is the real world, I'm not a little girl
I know exactly who I am

July 15, 2007 (Sunday)

I know its been almost a month ago that we had this Young People's program, It was our group who organized the afternoon's program. My part? I made the script for the skit. It was all about what's going to happen when you abide. As christians, we have to abide right? I mean, true, we are too busy at work and at school... but it doesn't mean that we would forget our responsibilites and our duties as a christian. 

I'm missing everyone at church... Brella, Norlyn and everyone else. Yesterday, it was our turn to host the Young People's program. With my schedule for this month... it wouldn't allow me to join and even go to church. I miss the fellowship and the fun when you get to be with your christian friends.

I remember when this photo was taken... I just came from my 7PM-4AM sched adn went with my father to church. I have to go with him, makes us worry too much when he gets to walk alone. Right after church... It was when me and my mother went to church. (My father's goes to another church actually, were still praying for him... he's not yet saved that's why. We go to a Baptist church. A church where i really find the value of fellowship.)

2:00PM... The start of our Young People's program. We really had fun. No matter who'd host the program it really doesn't matter... The fellowship with christian friends...

This is Brella, my best friend. We share things about life together. I got along with her immediately coz we both have the same likes and dislikes. We enjoy each others company. Although im older than her, it seems that we just are of the same age. There's actually the 3 of us who always go together. We call ourselves the Ba-gurls! Eversince the 7th World Baptist Youth Conference... things has never been the same. The laughter and the joy we shared together. The tears and the moments... There was never a dull moment!

Sigh.... I really miss them all! Can't wait to end this month... That way.. this schedule that i really really hate would end. And this job that made me think twice if i'd quit or not would end.