Dear Journal

July 8th, 9:45PM... I was alone at the airport (Incheon). Travelling alone is a little bit scary though. But i know God has been with me. As always, i cried as i left home. i hugged my kuya, mama and papa really tight. I know i have fully trust God that He would be working with my life. I have read junjun's email. i guess that would be the last email that he'd be sending. Guess our relationship has really come to an end. Before i went here, i have tried calling him on his cellphone but it was out of reach. Probably he changed his number or i don't know ... I wanted to bid him goodbye... pero i guess ganun na lang cguro un relationship namin. i still brought with me his shirt and all the memories we shared ... these are the only things that has left from him. i will never forget him. dami pa namin responsibilities and i guess we can't be with each other now. he's always thinking that i'm loving someone else pero wala naman. di lang na alam cguro that i always cry and hoped to see him. di lang nya alam how hard it was for me to try to forget him pero uo until now sya paren nasa isip at heart ko. jun, if only you knew, kung nababasa mo lang diary ko, kaw lahat andito. kaw kausap ko lagi. there are nights when all i could do is cry. wala ako magawa! (could you imagine how helpless i am?!)

i had my water baptism before i came to Korea. I had a change of membership. I am now a baptist. I go to church at World In Need Baptist Church. Pastor Kent took me when i was so down and was all dried up Spiritually. Pastor Kent made me realize that i should move on with life and let God be. I'm always amazed at how they met with Ruthy his wife. I tell myself ... someday i would have a love story to tell.