Dear Journal

I'll never break my promise ...  You will always be in my thoughts and in my prayers ... I'm missing you a lot. If you only knew ...

For All of My Life

Come and lay here beside me
I'll tell you how I feel
There's a secret inside me
I'm ready to reveal

To have you close, embrace your heart
with my love
over and over
These are things that I promise
my promise to you

For all of my life
you are the one, i will love you faithfully forever
all of my life you are the one
I'll give to you my greatest love
for all of my life.

ooohhh..
o yeah...

Let me lay down beside you
There's something you should know
I pray that you decide to
open your heart and let me show
enchanted worlds of fairy tales
a wonderland of love
these are things that I promise
my promise to you

all of my life
with all of my heart
these are things that I promise

From the moment that i stepped at the airport and bid goodbye to my brother, my mother and my father ... Tears in my eyes couldn't stop from falling. I am on my way to a new place so strange to me. with people that only a few could speak and understand what i am talking. I prayed and prayed ... talked to Him and asked for His guidance. I don't know what His plans are for me but i sure know that He makes everything beautiful. Leaving home was part of His plan for me.

With my second week of stay here in korea, i was able to go to places that i thought you could only see them on TV. I saw big roads long and winding. I see tall buildings, great parks and have tasted different foods. Took pictures here and there, but behind those smiles were lonelines. Although i am here staying here in my sister's house for the meantime, there wasn't a single day that i miss everyone back home. I came here all the way from the Philippines to start a new chapter of my life but i could never leave everyone at home. A part of me carries the memories... his shirt that has a 'i love you no matter what happens' in it, his cap, his shorts, kuya's keychain, the cards and everything. Memories in Philippines are in a box. I still got no idea how long would i be staying here. Probably 3 months, a year or 2 or probably even 4 years. There isn't a day that i'd forget everything that happened between my first love and me. I had tried walking in the snow but it sure does is so much different when you are with the one that you truly love beside you. Though i am far but you will always be in my thoughts and prayers. Reading through his emails makes me cry each time i read it. Only God knows what's gonna happen tomorrow. I do not want him to worry so much about me. I want him to move on, go on with his life and let God work on it. There are still questions left unanswered but i know in due time He will let me understand why things happen the way He wanted it to be.

Sitting here with a cup of tea, i just couldn't help it ... I must admit it ... I am missing home.